*** ANOTHER FORGOTTEN ONE 17/01/2010 ***

The flaming fire paints the skies black....? No idea? same here. So this week has been somewhat stressful, there has been peaks of rage building inside, but guess what? what? yea, you got it right I have this tiny little feeling in the back of my mind that there has been some progress with something. Anyway the day I went back to work wasn't very nice so I was feeling pretty down, but not to worry the rest of the week was pretty much the same, and I really don't think I should be working so much, I had plans to not actually go back to work this week, but shit happened and I ended up going to work anyway and I really don't want to deal with all the bullshit that is forced upon me every day. I keep saying to myself that there is no reason to be pissed off or stressed about things yet I still let it get to me.

I get upset when people around me are angry and shout and kick things, I'm pretty sure it's because it reminds me of something...Mr X is pissed off and Mrs X (Alcoholic Mrs X) wants more money to go out and spend on more drink so she can come home and spew up in the toilet all night and keep me awake. Just tonight before the shop was closing Alan started acting all pissed off and was all angry about something so he walked off and kicked an old TV then just seemed really angry, and I just find it so hard to deal with stuff like that, I know it's not me that's annoyed but it just makes me feel so sad and need to get away and be by myself for a little while.

I want to try and do something different every week, like change something about me or just do something silly or fun even if it's only fun for me. I'm taking suggestions for things, it could be anything like walk around the streets telling people that I'm god and will piss on them if they don't give me 25p, but it would probably be more use full if it was something that helped me in some way. I'm tired and my imagination went to sleep about 20 minutes ago, so sleep

So apparently I write like a girl, almost all of my Blogs are feminine according to "The Gender Genie" :(. I don't think they look like a girl wrote them, but gg doesn't lie, and it 100% accurate 500% of the time, and that's a fact because I wrote it here. Was her not if with where be when your we she and myself me.

This might seem counter intuitive, especially after how you've been feeling about people lately, but my suggestion is to be nice to people for a whole week. That means no matter how stupid they are being, you treat them like they are your friend and humour them.

My theory is that just by acting less annoyed at them you will improve your own mood. When you are in a bad mood things you would normally shrug off will only make your mood worse. So by expecting the stupidity and knowing you won't act pissed off to it, you may be able to actually ignore it.