This morning not long before I was woken by magic just before my alarm went off, I was having this dream that feels like more of a message from my own brain, it doesn't matter what happened in the dream, but the out come is I now feel like I know what I want. One little thing that stands out most in my memory is about money, an unknown person was giving money out to everyone, and I had a hand full of money that I started to drop all over the place, after picking it all up this one person came over and tried to take it all, he manged to get some of it, and then I threw the whole lot into the air and it all went high into the sky and the wind took it all away but I remember feeling so happy about doing it, I have never really felt like I need money and I think this was my brain telling me not to worry about it. The funny thing about the dream is just before i woke up the dream cut to a commercial like the whole thing turned into a TV show, I think it would have been a comedy cos I found it pretty funny but it had some pretty serious messages it got across.

I would like to thank Windows 7 for restarting while I was in the middle typing the above, it was super fun when I lost most of it (I was using Google Docs to write this cos I'm at work) so a really big thanks goes out to the dumb mother fucker that programmed it to not be able to see that I was typing at the time, don't get me wrong Windows 7 is win but i could really do without stupid things like that happening, anyway enough about that....and let me get back to what i was doing.

So today I had a driving lesson, was going pretty well, until i made a stupid mistake, it wasn't that bad but I was totally lost inside my head thinking about something else when I decided to pull out in front of a police car, well not really pull out in front of him he could have got past no problem but I really should have stopped and let him pass because there was another car parked on my side of the road, anyway form that point on it started going round and round in my head and that plus the stuff that was already going on is a little more than I can handel so this is a piss poor attempt to try and get some of it out.

Social Distortion is like the fucking win, there is a word that is better but it hasn't been invented yet, so win will have to do for now. Some of you may know that I discovered them a while back while listening to last.FM and ever since I heard that first song that's still stuck in my head I've been listening to them over and over all the time, I have a lot of favourite songs like Story Of My Life, Ring Of Fire, Angel's Wings, When The Angels Sing, Reach For The Sky and I could probably go on and on until I've named every song one each album. I can honestly say I like them almost as much as The Wildhearts/Ginger and that's a lot cos I fucking love them more than anything and verything.

I'm pretty sure that my dream has now made it very clear what I want from life and I hope I can live up to my dream and make it all come true. I have a question for anyone that might feel like answering it, am I sometimes hard to follow when speaking or my written stuff? cos I sometimes feel like people really don't get what I'm talking about.

Love, Chris.