Spellchecked but nothing removed (See how stupid I R.)

I’m sure you can agree that I’m not an idiot, I don’t claim to be intelligent or a genius, but I often feel stupid when it comes to spelling because I’m not very good at it, I could blame it on being dyslexic or something like that but I’m they just made that up for retards because everyone gets mixed up with the order of letters, numbers and other stuff. I have find that I’m unable to spell words when under pressure, in fact I can’t even spell words even if someone tells me how to spell it, It sometimes feels like the word processing part of my brain doesn’t work at all, It’s hard to explain. I have a lot of problems with people’s names and place names, not sure why that is. I also find it almost impossible to take details down with someone is speaking to me on the phone, and because people are dicks they will normally act like dicks about it and I’ve even had some people say things like “You must be a retard” because I have problems processing words. I really don’t think I was designed to communicate that way, and often feel like people should be able to access the information direct from by brain until I realise that they are too stupid to actually do that...Ignore that last bit it is very silly
I love Social Distortion.

Nothing really been happening in my life, that really sucks, there is a lot I would love to do but I feel like there are no opportunities for me to take advantage of but it’s probably because I’m not actually out there doing something about it, I don’t really have any friends here, well not ones that I would go out and do stuff with and most people I know would rather go out drinking than think of something fun to do and even if there was something really cool to do they would find some way of getting drunk and then say how cool it was getting drunk and being a total dick.....

I hate my life, I hate feeling stupid, I hate not doing something, I hate not having friends to do stuff with, I hate hate, I hate the way I look, I hate that I feel like I’m fat and only weigh 10 and a half stone, I hate that I’m a social retard, I hate that the world is round, I hate that my Car uses fuel, I hate that the XNA books I have paid good money for contain retarded ways of doing things, I hate Sony, I hate the pain, I hate that I need to replace the strings on my electric guitar, I hate the people don’t seem to respect me, I hate that people seem to think I something I’m not, I hate pretending to be something I’m not, I hate feeling like I don’t fit in, I hate the feeling I get when I think about my driving test that is coming up soon, I hate this hate list, I hate Aquiss for being so fucking expensive for what little they give me, I hate BT for being shit, I hate the cable companies for not putting cable to my house, I hate SCOTLAND, I hate ENGLAND, I hate life, I hate that that last one is so close to the first one, I hate that this is 584 words long to that number, I hate my RAM that went faulty, I hate feeling alone, and I hate feeling like nothing is ever going to change even thought I try do things different.

People are shit.
What’s New, Nothing....Yeah nothing? Anna has nice boobs, shame about the face :(. The Pusher, Fake Fake Fake fucking FAKE!

Iamalie happpppy words escape my mind while the world spins out of control, my life from with my end of pain, I don’t feel worthless or worth full with my mind wanting to write the lies that fall from my head to my hands that I want you forgive me for the lies that came....die. Pen, Swan, Bird, Stress, Relax, Exercise, SMILE.

Mommy ... it’s all your fault.2549y