Today is a perfect example of being down, sad, upset annoyed for no reason at all, I get the feel that I need to do something stupid like smash, break something, hurt someone and kill things. I hate this feeling not because it’s bad but because I don’t know why I feel like this, I’m trying to get my thoughts out of my head so here goes and hopefully this will help even though I don’t feel it’s connected to my current mood....

I would like to say something about someone that is an absolute idiot that should be shown how stupid they are. This person will be called James because I don’t want people knowing who he is...James went out to do a job at this house, he did most of it fine, but then it came to placing these plaster board boxes into the walls for plates like Coaxial or Phone but for some reason didn’t bother to measure or check to see if the holes that he was making in the wall where level and well they look like a 3 year old got hold of a pad saw and started cutting into the walls to, I tried my best to make them look better but as soon as you came into the room they stood out a mile, this upsets me very much because the house had just been plaster boarded and looked pretty nice and this makes it look very ugly. I did fortunately get to do some of them which I measured and levelled properly and they look pretty good, it’s the second time in my life I’ve ever done them and I know for sure they look pretty good because I took the time to do it well. I really hope this person gets what they deserve for making this mess...

Next I would like to say something about a couple of XNA books that I got...The first one started out ok, covered some good stuff and then came to implementing a camera system that really did suck, well the system didn’t suck it, the way it was coded did and that pissed me off a lost because I’m reading a book to learn how to do something and it’s basically telling me to do it a shit way that will fuckup if do certain things, after reading a little more and getting more annoyed with it I decided to move onto the next book in hopes that it would be better. The second book seems a little crappy to start with, with an even worse camera system and but again it did have a good layout of how the camera system should be set out, which I’ve adopted but ignored all the actual code written in the book, I then came to a bit about Terrain and the complete lack of what the code actually does really isn’t going to help people learn, you can explain what the code is doing but that is useless if you don’t explain why it’s doing it. Maybe I’m stupid and that’s the only problem here or they are crap at writing books and the only reason they are writing books is because they are too shit to actually work doing this sort of thing. I really feel bad about spending £65 on 2 books that are crap.

My driving test is coming up very soon and it’s not really on my mind a lot and for some reason that bothers me, I feel like I should be worried about it but I’m not. I don’t think I’m going to pass, I would love to pass but for some reason I’ve got it into my head that I’m going to fail. Maybe I’m just an idiot because then everything would make sense.

I hope I die. Fuck you!